Late looksmaxxing influencer Connor Murphy shared an alarming video earlier than his stunning drowning loss of life this week wherein he appeared panicked at how “excessive” he was — saying it left him feeling like he was “dying each second.”
The 32-year-old self-styled “giga chad” – who had 2.36 million subscribers on YouTube — appeared panicked and disoriented within the clip that has gone wildly viral since his drowning in Thailand on Tuesday.
“I’m actually excessive. It’s getting bizarre,” the anguished YouTuber mentioned within the clip, which has now been seen 2.6 million instances.
“I really feel like I’m dying each second,” he mentioned as his eyes darted across the room.
Gurning from no matter medicine he was on, the influencer then informed his followers, “I’m simply making this video so I can watch it and remind myself, ‘Am I dreaming? Is it actual?’”
The video began being reshared Tuesday, quickly after information broke of the chiseled influencer’s loss of life, with fellow YouTuber “Name me Koosh” calling it “final message to the world earlier than his loss of life.” Nonetheless, it truly seems to be from a number of years in the past, based on information.com.au.
Murphy shared quite a few weird movies, together with his final July 4 the place he was marching up the steps sporting a cape and holding a bow and arrow.
The late influencer was identified to dabble in psychedelics, based on fellow looksmaxxer Androgenic.
“He started meditating, taking psychedelics, and looking out into spirituality and the idea of awakening, which I actually discover fascinating,” he wrote in an obit on X.
“His ayahuasca journey in 2020 catapulted him right into a state of manic grandiosity, the place he faked his personal loss of life and actually ‘acted’ in disturbed and weird methods.”
Ayahuasca is a psychedelic tea utilized by indigenous peoples for non secular therapeutic – with hallucinations lasting as much as six hours.
It’s not clear if Murphy was beneath the affect of medication on the time of his loss of life – however drugs had been reportedly discovered inside his bag when cops searched his rental residence he shared together with his 22-year-old girlfriend, solely recognized as Bee in native media.
His girlfriend harassed that she had by no means seen him take medicine.
No less than two containers of the prescription-strength antidepressant treatment Stablon, generally known as tianeptine, had been close to the sink.
The Meals and Drug Administration has not authorized the drug for medical use, and it’s not identified if Murphy was taking it.
There have been additionally a number of packets of Falim — a Turkish sugar-free gum used to strengthen the masseter muscle and improve jaw look — that lined the sink.
Murphy was concerned in a shouting match with a safety guard when he arrived again at his property Tuesday – moments earlier than his loss of life.
He was irked when a driver wouldn’t give him a raise again to his residence.
Murphy shouted on the safety guard earlier than fleeing when cops arrived.
Divers later pulled his physique from a 32-foot-deep lake close to his residence.
